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When I woke up this morning, Madam Pomfrey told me I was ready to leave the Hospital Wing. My left forefinger won't be growing back, I'll always be a little deaf in one ear, and there's a mess of scars on my side, but otherwise my wounds have all healed up. I reckon I was pretty lucky, all things considered. So I asked where my clothes were, and she told me they were on the chair beside the bed. My own clothes were ruined in the battle, so I expected different ones, but when I turned to look at the chair, I about stopped breathing.

I called after her, 'Are you sure these are for me?' and she said over her shoulder, 'The castle provided them.'

So I put them on.

I'm wearing Ravenclaw robes for the very first time.

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alt_fred

How are you doing, Professor? We dropped in on you at the Hospital Wing the first day, but you were so doped up on potions we weren't sure you knew we were there.

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alt_terry

I think I remember that. Or I thought I dreamed that you were there.

The truth? Not so good. Madam Pomfrey ordered me not to transform while my wounds were knitting, and that was hard. Seeing the robes helped. But I've been feeling so bleak about Neville that it took awhile before I could bring myself to put them on.

Mum told me when I woke up. The look on her face when she told me...

I hope I never see a look on her face like that as long as I live.

From:

alt_fred

Everyone's absolutely gutted about someone we lost. Several someones. Loads of someones. So you're in good company.

Why would that make it hard to put the robes on, though? You have to know that Neville would be dead chuffed to see you in Ravenclaw colours at last.

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alt_terry

I feel guilty.

I can't talk to Mum and Dad about it. I'm trying to be a big brother to Evelyn and Kevin, but it's not the same, and they know it's not the same.

From:

alt_fred

Survivor's guilt. Yeah? We're all feeling it, Professor.

George 'n me have lost a brother, too, Terry. We know what it's like.

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alt_terry

I...forgot. That's right, you have. I'm sorry I forgot. It's strange, it was difficult to think of Percy as your brother, because you were so different than him.

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alt_terry

It's just that...see, I promised him. I promised him we'd find him and bring him home. I'd care for him the rest of our lives if I had to. But I couldn't keep that promise in the end.

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alt_fred

Don't you think that what happened might have been what Neville would have wanted?

Well, granted, I'm sure he couldn't have wanted what happened in the interrogation rooms. But he chose that, yeah?

I can guarantee you, as a Gryffindor, that if he could have understood what was happening, if he knew he had a chance to take Voldemort down versus being rescued, he would have chosen the first. Don't you think so?

It's right to miss him. It's right to be sad we couldn't rescue him. But he wouldn't have thought you're, I dunno, taking his place. He was happy when your family adopted you.

I know it's cold comfort at best, but I reckon that if you have to lose someone you love, it's better to know it's because he was being a hero for the Order.

We don't have even that.

And let me tell you, it sucks dragon eggs.