Yeah, well, that's part of why I keep thinking, I don't have to stay for NEWTs.
I could pass my OWLs, then just not come back. I'd have met my requirements to be a 'true subject' and no one would much care if I dropped out of sight. (Pansy would, but I could see her on holidays and we could talk on the Lock, at least till we came of age.) I could apprentice with Madam Pomfrey and work for the Order.
It just seems
It is so awful here right now.
And I'm afraid so much of the time. That I'll make a misstep and she'll expel me. Or worse, I'll make a misstep and she'll call MLE. There's so much that could go wrong -- and that's true for everyone on the Lock but you know I think Umbridge particularly hates me. She'd be nervous, I think, calling MLE on Pansy. She'd be at least a little hesitant with Justin or Ron. But me? Or Neville or Evelyn? Neville, I think he wants to stay because of Evelyn, actually, he feels like he can protect her if he's close to her. But I can't protect anyone, if anything I bring extra risk to the people I care about.
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I could pass my OWLs, then just not come back. I'd have met my requirements to be a 'true subject' and no one would much care if I dropped out of sight. (Pansy would, but I could see her on holidays and we could talk on the Lock, at least till we came of age.) I could apprentice with Madam Pomfrey and work for the Order.
It just seems
It is so awful here right now.
And I'm afraid so much of the time. That I'll make a misstep and she'll expel me. Or worse, I'll make a misstep and she'll call MLE. There's so much that could go wrong -- and that's true for everyone on the Lock but you know I think Umbridge particularly hates me. She'd be nervous, I think, calling MLE on Pansy. She'd be at least a little hesitant with Justin or Ron. But me? Or Neville or Evelyn? Neville, I think he wants to stay because of Evelyn, actually, he feels like he can protect her if he's close to her. But I can't protect anyone, if anything I bring extra risk to the people I care about.
Except for being the unofficial Healer, now.
I don't know.